Family Ordeal(ing)

Why do I have to pray so much to deal with you?
Why do I have to pray so hard to deal with you and this situation?
Why do I have to mentally prepare and emotionally recover every time I interact with you?

I can’t even wish you out of existence, you are so integral to everything.

What else can this be but a nightmare?
Obstacle, enemy, innocent, ignorant, family, friend, love.

‘It’s complicated’ doesn’t even begin to cover it.